Nothing else matters

eu nao acreditei
eu desprezei de início
aceitei o valor que recebi
entreguei-me em uma chance
apaixonei-me
vivi o que nunca vivi antes
ouvi o que nunca ouvi antes
mas no meio do caminho tudo se perdeu
você já não é mais o mesmo
eu já nao sou quem você conheceu
o tempo e a distância fizeram o resto
o sentimento prevalece
voce me ensinou a ser assim
eu aprendi a gostar de voce do jeito que é
do jeito que precisava ser
aceito o que vivo
entendo nossos lados
rendo-me à distância
ao tempo
e quase como um pesadelo
mas sigo o coracao
e cada dia morro em mim
e vivo em ti
deixo para tras os erros
busco em voce os acertos
sei que nao és a salvacao
nunca foi
nem nunca sera
mas no meio do caos que vivo
és meu refúgio
a única paz que encontrei por toda a vida
mesmo quando já encontrei amor
você é o que me completa
em todos os sentidos
a distância doi
o tempo corroi
as marcas ficam
mas estar com você
é como encontrar abrigo em tempestade
e te amar é ser livre e viver
e te ver viver em liberdade
mas senti que te encontrei
do amanhã, quem sabe?
só sei dizer que o que carrego é simples, puro e verdadeiro
e guardo para mim cada momento
e sofro por me torturar em relembrar a cada segundo
porque voce é presença perene
os dias passam
e a cada despertar sinto o seu cheiro
e isso me faz seguir
a cada dia conto os dias do reencontro
e isso me dá garra
nao preciso de voce
mas sua ausencia me mata pela metade
ao mesmo tempo que sua presenca em minha vida
estimula o ardor da rotina
"Não te quero ter porque em meu ser tudo estaria terminado. 
Quero só que surjas em mim como a fé nos desesperados 
Para que eu possa levar uma gota de orvalho nesta terra amaldiçoada 
Que ficou sobre a minha carne como nódoa do passado".

When everything is made to be broken

I've been broken for a while

searching myself and what I am, what I want, who I wanna be

The quest is not easy

obstacles are all I find

chances and opportunites are all what I embrace

But I don't want the world to see me yet

'cause I'm sure they will not understand

a broken heart, a scattered figure of someone who is supposed to be an image, but transcend to something beyond imagination

Life is hard and painfull at the same time that it's great, full of surprises, love, music and melody

Then there's emptiness, loneliness and a hole in your soul that keep us going back to the past

even though we keep living forward, the yesterday is always there, rulling the way we behave

we overcome all this and still

something is missing

I find my freedom in what I want but to fleed the most

but there are all the around the clock craziness, that makes me don't get a hold of myself

And besides the one I love, the only time I get some peace is with my through the looking glass self

on the other side I'm numb and feel relaxed, good with myself, although guilty of not accomplishing some of my personal goals

'cause life doesn't understand we need some time for ourselves

and my time is my religion

and today I feel like I'm not myself

specially because I lost control of everything that surrounds me

so I feel I'm not me

and everything around me drains my soul and life out like vampires

I feel I deserve better, but I know is part of life

so I go through this winds of change

to get someday to where I wanna be

and my never ending search is for peace and forever love

Atráves do espelho tudo é ilusão

Já faz um tempo estou cansada de ser quem sou
Algumas coisas que ainda me prendem, mas que gostaria de deixar para trás
Hábitos que já não gosto, mas que reluto a deixar
A solidão me forçando a agir como não gostaria
Porém os impulsos são difíceis de controlar
Mas sinto que já não sou mais eu
Apenas uma fuga para não enxergar a realidade do vazio
Cansei
Quero mudar
Tento
Mas está sendo mais difícil do que parece
Não desisto
Mas por enquanto só encontro insatisfação comigo mesmo
De não poder ser forte o suficiente
E concentrar nos meus objetivos
De ser algo melhor
Falta foco, disciplina
Vivo exausta
Falta estímulo
A solidão tem dessas
As fugas são gritos de desespero
Não querer olhar no espelho
Viver através do espelho
Se iludindo
Se enganando
Acreditando
Sem saber no que

And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain

I've been living wicked games that are tearing myself apart
I only dreamed desire for one single moment, but fear wears me out
Somehow the feeling of a happy ending doesn't feel right
I'm giving my life to you
Biding on the moments we have been through
Even though all my feelings go to you
Loneliness, insecurety come my way afraid to get hurt once more
I just wish I could open my heart to you
As we did before
But I feel you don't feel the same no more
So I preffer to silence myself among all this uncertainties and live what is left for us
'Cause maybe if.there is no tomorrow
I would be able.to say i tried.to live it to the most
Because you are.the only one that brought something i never had before
Peacefull love
And for that i need you

Love is all love is you

So close
No matter how far
But then the distance keep making us farther
Is a battle i don't know if i'm gonna be strong enough to win
Both sides have their own weakness
And that's called solitude
Somehow you don't reach or even feel, nor even know how much I miss you
But somehow the peace you brought me within is dying
Maybe 'cause loneliness reach our ways
Or 'cause reality is hitting
Anyhow
I feel like a never ending cycle
Of love, insecurity, cowardness, fear, desire, loneliness, emptyness, need
It's never ending
'Cause it never know how this could be
What you never got though
Is that I keep my heart and soul only for you
'Cause I believe we belong to each other
But what hurts me the most is that you still doubt it
While I still perceive it

When love comes your way don't let it slip away

Uncertanties, lonelyness, insecurities, emptyness, silence
That's what fills my heart
I can't expect to be next to you
And make these all go away
Right now the distance brings all these confused feelings for being afraid to loose you
As I sense you are getting farther from me
You probably don't know
But you are the reason I keep on going
And to know I'll see you soon
I don't need anything else
But I'm tired
I just needed to go away
But I stayed for you
I know, as you once said
We have different lives
Time and space
Keeping us apart
You keep going
I'm stuck in the past
Of lingering memories of what once was us
You search other arms
I scape from reality using other lips
Lost souls that don't know their way back
However I know now the way to find myself, to find peace and it was in you
Although I fear
It's an one way road what once was a two way street
I have to trust
I have to make myself believe
Recovering those single and unforgettable moments with you
After all I still fear the unexpected
To somehow be disappointed
That you don't love me as I do
I only now you came to my life for one purpose
Teach me to believe
And for that you will always be mine