When everything is made to be broken

I've been broken for a while

searching myself and what I am, what I want, who I wanna be

The quest is not easy

obstacles are all I find

chances and opportunites are all what I embrace

But I don't want the world to see me yet

'cause I'm sure they will not understand

a broken heart, a scattered figure of someone who is supposed to be an image, but transcend to something beyond imagination

Life is hard and painfull at the same time that it's great, full of surprises, love, music and melody

Then there's emptiness, loneliness and a hole in your soul that keep us going back to the past

even though we keep living forward, the yesterday is always there, rulling the way we behave

we overcome all this and still

something is missing

I find my freedom in what I want but to fleed the most

but there are all the around the clock craziness, that makes me don't get a hold of myself

And besides the one I love, the only time I get some peace is with my through the looking glass self

on the other side I'm numb and feel relaxed, good with myself, although guilty of not accomplishing some of my personal goals

'cause life doesn't understand we need some time for ourselves

and my time is my religion

and today I feel like I'm not myself

specially because I lost control of everything that surrounds me

so I feel I'm not me

and everything around me drains my soul and life out like vampires

I feel I deserve better, but I know is part of life

so I go through this winds of change

to get someday to where I wanna be

and my never ending search is for peace and forever love