All I could say to you, right now

Tenho tantas saudades que nem sei por onde comecar
Tanta coisa a contar que nem sei o que falar
Tenho pensado tanto em você, quer dizer, nunca parei de pensar.
Desde a última vez que nos vimos, minha vida mudou completamente.
Hoje posso dizer que sou outra pessoa e ainda assim continuo a mesma.
Estava em um táxi, olhando a vista e me deu uma vontade imensa de falar com você.
Queria falar da vida, das coisas engraçadas, do quanto estou feliz.
E ainda você faz falta.
É engraçado, você surgiu no pior da minha vida.
Talvez tenha jogado tudo em você.
Esse foi o erro.
Mas hoje que estou bem
So me falta você.
Desculpa por tudo
Foi meu maior erro
Ter jogado tudo para você
Mas sabe o que é engraçado
Ainda continuo te amando.

I wish I would I could

Sometimes I wish I could say to him how much I still miss him, his gaze, lips, arms, his hair, touch and lips.
It was so long ago
I wonder if he still remember who I am..
And in times like this I would love to write him a lovely letter, telling how much my life has changed and all that I've been through lately.
But it is long gone.

Raising the white flag

After a whole sequence of disappoinents
I give myself up
Won't search anymore for what I cannot find
I regret my foolish heart to allow itself to be so open to get hurt
Wish I could learn how to harden it, but the more it hurts louder is the pain.
Wish I could just silence it down
And walk quietly along the way with my mended soul without memories or regrets.
Running away is never the right answer
It got me to just create a bigger mess that the one I was
It's not just a matter of finding someone new, or to try to tranfer how I fell
I am not ready to move on
It is something I have to give my own time
No one replaces other
And that was my biggest mistake all along
Try to forget and ease the missing in the arms of others which never meant anything than a failed effort to diminish the pain and the abscence of a true love.
A sequence of frustrating lies.
Things like this cannot be compared.

It could be real

Sometimes I wish I could tell you just how I feel
But I am just lost in all that's been through
My heart is split and shattered
There's some remains of what was hurt
There's a part that just want to run wild
I have so much in me
That I've been keeping to myself
Caged screaming for release
I had so much to give you
When I feel is not safe
I know somehow you feel it too
But it will never be the same way again
You've been here for so long
That no time and space could ever change our ways

You are a forever living part of mine

I spent my whole night dreaming of you
I fell asleep thinking of you
I deny myself of your existence
But I cannot deny you are still here
All along
I don't yearn and burn anymore
Still I long your presence
You were something I could never be able to classify
You mean something
And I will never understand why
Maybe it was meant to be
As well as it was meant to go
But somehow I feel
You are here around me
Even if only in thoughts
Or dreams