And then

I am really afraid of what it's about to come to us
I cannot believe this might be true
Things been changing
I've been feeling
Although I try to deny it
If this somehow becomes true
What am i supposed to do
Would you still love me
Would you love and accept what we made from it
This is what you were expecting
And yearning
Since the first time we talked
But do i know you
Are you really what you showed me
Risks
Once more i'm about to take it

On the edge

So many uncertainties
So much fear of getting hurt
That I don't even know on what to believe anymore
Can it be that picture perfect?
Should I let go all of the insecurities and truly trust what you have for me?
You came asking for nothing but my heart, my life, my whole self
If I give that to you will I find the best on you?
I just wish you are exactly what you show to me
I want to believe it is all true
Because when we are together I find happiness, peace and joy on the most simple things
You fill my heart with hope
Although I'm still afraid to someday knoe the truth
And to find out something is hidden deeper
That I so blind could not see
I hope the trust I put on you will be worth it
And you will keep your word in not hurting me

Time will tell

When I saw you, I knew
When we met, I was more sure
When I arrived scared and you were there smiling at my door all my fears were gone
Each day we shared was a new surprise, a new discovery
A flush of happiness I have longing for so long
Something I was searching for, but not exactly at that moment where I found you
Fears of uncertainty run through my heart all the time
Because I know what I have felt and lived, not too long ago
But that does not diminishes the fondness I found in you
Looking through your eyes I can see beyond
Although you are so far, your presence dwells in my heart
I am not sure what the future beholds to us
But each and every time I hear you tell stories about it, my heart feels safe
Inspite of all the doubts and questions that also come along
I truly hope and wish it all some day can become true
Since my love for you grows bigger each and every day
But the uncertainty is always reminding me that words are just words
And only time can tell it

Shot in the dark

We are so intense and I am afraid this might end as it started
I know I am not able to handle this again
You are not the first
But I do hope you will be the last
We laugh
We entwined
We share
With no fear
Albeit deep inside I am always afraid how this might end, out of nothing, in the heat of the moment
I lived this before
I don't have to go through this once more
Please, for the last time
Be true
I am being my whole self
And giving you my whole
For the last time
But I know I might fall again
Even though I am not ready for this