Waking up

I cannot keep believing
When you don't
I had done what I could
But I feel you don't ever noticed
You never cared much
When it was all I cared
You are not even sure if you want to see me again - that's something I heard a lot from you in the past few months.
So I've come to the conclusion: I have been knocking my head on an empty wall...
When I stop to think, I did all the moves, you just kept there going with the flow
Maybe I gave myself too much for something that was meant to last for a week and move on...adventures...
And I believed and carried for a whole year, just to listen that there was nothing...I felt like a fool, as I have always been...
But I tried so hard to believe, that maybe I couldn't see the true story
Just one of your tries
Just one of your adventures
Not the perfect candy you have been searching for so long in each package you open - maybe for a moment you thought so, just to find out, nahhh, not what I am looking for
I feel a fool for that
Sorry if I was so naive to believe and to try and, for all this, to bother you for so long as the needy, boring, annoying Brazilian girl - I might as well have become a joke
It just seems so stupid now
Meeting you all the other times
Everything
Sorry
Just know my feelings for you were true
But since that don't mean anything
It's time for me to truly go
Thank you for all the patience
And understanding
But that is not enough
You know that I am here
And sorry if I cannot wait anymore
What I think is a shame
But you never proved me wrong
Never
You just always let it go
Never fought
Never cared
And I know I say harsh words sometimes
But you, you never said anything - that's even worst than harsh words...
I just have to go back to life
That's what I've been trying, but the thought of you never allows me
So there's just a reason for me to open myself that much
And I already know what to expect...nothing
But I need to say how I feel, anyway, so I will never regret my side of the story...
Selfish, yes, you can call that, but the other side was as much...
Now, I am the one who learned to say: I don't care