Latitudes

And then I found a movie that reminds me of us
Out of nothing, zapping on tv
And the places we'd been together
Latitudes on a map
And us
The only diference is that they opened their hearts
But then is just a movie
Real life is so much hard
To look in the eyes and bleed your heart out in words
Just to get hurt
'Cause sometimes words are not enough
And the fear of the unknown paralizes
When love is just an illusion
And maybe, just maybe
In a remote situation
If I had said how I feel
Just maybe
You would say you felt the same
But I felt the love in your eyes were gone
So I'd better kept it all to me
And when all we lived became just memories
my heart just fell into pieces
You were not only far from me in latitudes on the map...your heart was no longer there
It was not physical...it was that connection, right there...and it was missing
You were gone
I lost you
And with you I lost myself and sunk into my heart and soul to release the sorrow
Because it hurts so much to realize
The only answer is to let you go
Although you are not gone
You are still here
And will forever be
But I can't keep up the illusions
I can't live my life waiting for the day, that single moment I would be expecting eagerly for I don't know how long, missing you...wanting you....hurting me
That overwhelming moment when and where we would meet again
To live more illusions
Until the next goodbye
But then it would be more memories
More longing
More missing
And you would be more distant
Slipping away through my hands
And probably this next time would never happened
'Cause you were already gone
I was not in your heart anymore
And at this moment I wonder...was I ever?
Perharps if there are still some part of me in you
Then who knows
If there's hope
If there's love
We have the latitudes
I'll always be waiting, but not expecting