Um adeus sem hora

tantas histórias
Tanta vida
Tanto amor
E se foi
Ah saudades
Quando a gente menos espera que você vai aparecer
Quando a gente acha que é para sempre
Uma história tem seu fim
Suas palavras
Seu amor e todo o carinho
Entretanto vao ficar
Tanta coisa que ainda queria poder dividir com você
A vida tem dessas coisas
Minha memória é você sorrindo
Cantando
O bolo com sorvete
As histórias da sua vida
Ser criança

thank you

and then I thought you would be different

for everything that's been going through

oh no

you are just like anyone else

fool of me to think you were the one

that someone to share

you just don´t care 

just like every other did

you make believe

you play with feelings

and when you conquer

just go away

there's no challenge anymore

I'm tired of falling in love 

and being used

as a toy

as a pet

I'm tired to care about people who doesn't even worry about how you feel

they just chew you like a bubble gum

and when the flavor is gone

they just spit you out

so I'm done

and I won't ever belive anything anymore

you were the last

thank you

Dear life...

Dear life,
Please, I beg you, give me a break
What a tough year
So many losses
I know is part of the way
But everything at once
I just hope for the best, always
By my body is tired
My heart is bruised
It's been like five years in one
Great things happened
With so great happy moments
Although things are not in the right track
If I was supposed to learn something
I've been learning a lot
I feel like I aged years
And my head is full of thoughts and worries and fears
I just wish and truly hope better things are yet to come
I have nothing left to do but move forward, keep fighting and wait for what else is out there for me
Just keep trying to find some peace
Give us break and more hope to believe
Everything will be alright

no more "I love you's"

And then I realized

It wasn't me who left your life

when you already had done that first

I don't know what you were trying to hide

You just left, little by little

do you ever think about me

I don't think so

maybe just when I come after you

I waste all my strengh on nothing

I'm tired

I need to let you go

But it seems so hard

I can't take it any longer

beacause there's no more hope

I´m tired of missing you

of loving for nothing

I don't think I deserve that

And I know that if I never write you again

I will never hear from you anymore

You just don't care

I tried no to believe

when that's the only truth in this whole story

I am always falling on the same mistakes

giving myself too much

believing in lies

for someone who just fooled me

sometimes I wonder if pepople don't have feelings

because they do to others what they wouldn't be able to take

a lesson learned never believe everything

lusty mouths only tell what you want to hear

so after they use you

they are gone and leave a broken heart

cannot understand how someone is capable of such things

I make a pact to myself

a promise sealed with tears of a bruised soul

don't ever fall in love again

it will only hurt you and make you blue and bitter

the venus and the full moon working on expressing the feels

no matter how much I love
what I fear the most
is how this could go wrong
most of the times it does
I'm tired of this ever trying
I am wasted of the changes
I need the peace of your presence
The calm of your unquietness
even though the unquietness of your absence is giving me more than I could ever believe i would be able to take
what a challenge for such a briused and naive heart to take
I have all my weakness
when I throw myself to the lions
and open myself in flesh and bones
I don't regret any of that
'cause I am true
albeit all the questionings
I know the truth
that's how i keep my feelings
It's all in me
and it changed me so much
someway I thought I never could
it was not you
but the way i feel for you
that matters so much to me
so if its not supposed to be
you will always be part of this
you thaught me to believe in my own feelings
that I can feel and love
even though I am not corresponded
I love still
I can live with this feeling
someday I told someone
no matter what
in some way I know
you will always be part of my life
we will always be connected
despite what the future brings
you will be always part of me
that's how I love you
about the missing
this, no even words could be always able to explain
just need you each and every sencond
only the moon and the stars hear my crying
There are no measurement for such feelings
I just learn day by day how to deal with it
the weirdest part of it all
I hardly know you
and yet I feel it all
maybe that's why I scared you
my intensity
because you don't know I was raised by the night
under the moon and the stars
and in the day I hide
and I always hid myself from everyone
I know how deep my feelings are
I carry the ancient knownledge
I know the ephemerality of the life
therefore I live up to the most
but when my heart starts to beat on a different pace
that's when my flamely, intense, firely self comes out of its own cocoon
to give, to raise, to cherish, to bring up, to leave myself
and it's all to love

the phoenix philosophy

I'm so tired of the games
people all the time trying to manipulate your mind
one thing I know about me
I do have a good heart
and I wish the best for everyone
that's what makes me happy
but it sickens me to see how people can be so fake
just to show the world something they are not
just to play by the rules and to say
I'm like everyone else
I believe I am true to myself and my beliefs
that's what counts
that's what worth for me
sometimes I might get out of my own tracks
nobody is perfect
neither do I
Therefore I love the times when I stop
when I am just with myself
and I stop and think to recognize
all the mistakes I'd been doing
and I go over to understand it all
I can't control my impulses
it's not so bad sometimes
however sometimes we pay the price
I am here to pay for whatever I've done
for whomever it was
I'll pay my debts
but I need to go forward and freed me from it all
Let everything in its own place
nonetheless what is true always remains
that's how I know which way to go
alwyas looking upwards to the sky
the moon is my compass
the stars are my guides
the ancients soul

How could this be

I miss talking to you
Our conversations
Laughs
Drenched in wine and ciders
How can I reach you
Where can I find you
I just have to let it go
But it seems impossible
You linger
And no matter what I do
How loud I cry
Nothing can make you be here
With me
What is left
Memories
Emptyness
Silence

I could finally see...sorry

I just have no words anymore
To express how I feel
I love you that's all
Sorry if sometimes I burst all my sorrow
It hurts so much to be so far
Someday I'll get used
Someday I'll forget
I feel so embarrased
I've been keeping what I really feel and think for so long
I knew I shouldn't have said anything
Now it's to late
My impulses were stonger
But none of it is a lie
That's how I truly feel
Wish I could know you better
Wish this could be easier
Why did I have to meet you
Life couldn't be easy on me
For a change
I will work my way to overcome this
I give up
Won't be easy
But I know I can
Sorry
That's the way it should be
I'm too blindly in love to see it
When there is no happy ending for us
Wish it could all be different
Wish you could be here with me
Sorry

Transbodando saudades do que não é

E hoje acordei morrendo
Sonhei com você a noite inteira
Acordei só saudades
É uma angústia
Uma sensação de espera
Mas espera pelo que?
Por qualquer coisa
Mesmo uma mera mensagem
Que nunca vem
O que mais me doi é que para você não importa
Simplesmente não há saudade, nem mesmo amor
Ah como me doi
Hoje queria poder abrir os olhos e te ver ao meu lado
Sentir seu cheiro
Seus beijos
Seu toque
Poder te abraçar, beijar e cuidar
Sonhos, sonhos, sonhos
Apenas reflexos de um coração que ama e acredita até mesmo no impossível
Doi saber que não te tenho
Doi saber que nunca existiu
Foram apenas sonhos
Ilusões
Que permanecerão para sempre como lembranças
So espero que um dia pare de doer
Perdoe-me por ser incapaz de te esquecer
Tenho muito amor em mim

Chove lá fora e aqui...

O dia termina
Na tempestade noturna
Que os ventos anunciam
Um silêncio que se quebra
Ainda quente
Lavando as ruas
As calçadas
Os carros
Lavando os suores
As mágoas
Que lave as almas
E leve consigo todas as dores
As saudades
E que ao cessar
O sol traga novos olhares
Esperanças de dias melhores

Tenho o mundo em mim

Anda tudo tão confuso
Mas há de continuar a caminhar
O vazio que preenche os dias
Lotados de fazer
Uma cabeça cheia de pensamentos
Um coração que transborda em sentir
Vontades, sonhos, desejos tão distantes quanto a realidade
Um aqui e agora incerto
Desafios e obstáculos intermináveis
A exaustão de ser
As cobranças do mundo
Quando apenas se quer voar
Buscar a paz interior
No meio de tanto caos
Uma desordem injusta
Ver nas pequenas coisas
Nas amizades
Nas paisagens
No vento que sopra
Nas estrelas do céu
Esperança e a alegria
Respirar
Sentir-se viva
Conter-se dentro de tantos limites
Suportar aquilo que não te deixa
E que em sua dualidade é tão bonito e perfeito, mas que te consome em dor e melancolia
Uma nostalgia do que foi, do que poderia um dia ser, do que não é
A saudade dos dias
Seguindo adiante
Carregando dentro de si
Coisas que nem mesmo as palavras podem expressar
A pressa de não deixar nada por fazer
De não ficar nada a ser dito
De aproveitar da vida aquilo que se pode tomar para si
Eu tenho o mundo em mim
Fecho os olhos, respiro profundamente
Ainda há muito caminho a seguir

if you want to go

can I scream it out
may I sccream and shout
why
oh so why
nowadays we have to keep our feelins
to ourselves
I hate the time
the distance
the space
I hate the nowadays rules of being shallow
I am me
I am deep
That`s the way I`ve always been
I never hate anyone
I enjoy life
I treasure moments
I love
everything
everyone
we to give our love to live
that`s life
love, love, love
giving love
that`s life is all about
til I found you
and then I lost the track
love me....

The kind of answer that will never be delivered

Remember one day I said: "I'm glad I found you"

Just having you in my life is the best gift of all

unfortunately we have an ocean apart

and that kills me

specially because I wake up and go to sleep thinking about you

Only I know how much I miss you

Even though the few memories I have 

keep coming and going, like a movie in looping,

they are enough to keep this alive

I don't need your help

I just need you here with me

if this could ever be possible

maybe life would be just too perfect 

We are just two people in this planet 

packed of other people

filled with feelings and indifferences

we have our stories, we have different lives

we just happened to cross our paths

and that changed me for sure

like never before

when we are together

you are the sweetest thing

and we work well

we connect

and that's not something very simple and common to happen

but when we are apart it feels like we are strangers

and everything changes

as if nothing had ever happened

I got so confused

It was a mix of feelings 

I felt so naive to believe it

as if it was all lies

that is the worst

being deceived

But is not about you

or maybe it is

one thing I know is

when we deal with people's feelings

is so hard

'cause each and everyone are different

with different thoughts, expectations

we cannot make people think the way we do

so I had my expectations

I felt deceived

because you didn't act as I expected

but that doesn't mean it was your fault

we never promise anything

we never talked about us

I don't even know if there's something to say, actually

if there is an 'us'

I just know how i feel about you

and I figure I cannot just take this away from me so easily

so I've been learning to deal with this

to live with your presence in me although you are absent

to miss you

maybe someday this will go away, maybe not

that's for today

there's not much else to expect

I do love you and I cannot deny this to myself

so if I think about you

I'll find my way to express myself

I'm not proud so I don't feel the need to hide this from you

I'm not asking to be loved

I just care and if I feel like it

I'll find my ways to show you

Even far