The kind of answer that will never be delivered

Remember one day I said: "I'm glad I found you"

Just having you in my life is the best gift of all

unfortunately we have an ocean apart

and that kills me

specially because I wake up and go to sleep thinking about you

Only I know how much I miss you

Even though the few memories I have 

keep coming and going, like a movie in looping,

they are enough to keep this alive

I don't need your help

I just need you here with me

if this could ever be possible

maybe life would be just too perfect 

We are just two people in this planet 

packed of other people

filled with feelings and indifferences

we have our stories, we have different lives

we just happened to cross our paths

and that changed me for sure

like never before

when we are together

you are the sweetest thing

and we work well

we connect

and that's not something very simple and common to happen

but when we are apart it feels like we are strangers

and everything changes

as if nothing had ever happened

I got so confused

It was a mix of feelings 

I felt so naive to believe it

as if it was all lies

that is the worst

being deceived

But is not about you

or maybe it is

one thing I know is

when we deal with people's feelings

is so hard

'cause each and everyone are different

with different thoughts, expectations

we cannot make people think the way we do

so I had my expectations

I felt deceived

because you didn't act as I expected

but that doesn't mean it was your fault

we never promise anything

we never talked about us

I don't even know if there's something to say, actually

if there is an 'us'

I just know how i feel about you

and I figure I cannot just take this away from me so easily

so I've been learning to deal with this

to live with your presence in me although you are absent

to miss you

maybe someday this will go away, maybe not

that's for today

there's not much else to expect

I do love you and I cannot deny this to myself

so if I think about you

I'll find my way to express myself

I'm not proud so I don't feel the need to hide this from you

I'm not asking to be loved

I just care and if I feel like it

I'll find my ways to show you

Even far