All I did was wrong

Sometimes we have to admit mistakes and move over
Stop expecting and quit day dreaming
I am as clumsly with my words as with my feelings
I never meant to hurt anyone
My intensity is always putting everything to loose
I lost my love for all the wrong I've done
I for that I lost myself
Why can't I just love in silence
Why can't I just stay in the shadows
And hold it all to me so I won't hurt anyone
Just want to freed me from all this heavy wheight
A desperation to be loved
That ends up suffocating the loved one
And sending him farther and farther away
I just did it all wrong from the start
I lost my mind and with that my heart
There's probably a reason for that
And I believe is life teaching me not to take the wrong attitudes all over again
I just cannot blame someone for not loving me
I cannot blame no one else but me if I just don't have what I need
Like a stupid child I messed up my love
And don't know how to fix it
Don't even think there's a way to fix what I already broke
That is a guilt I will always carry
I am the only one to blame
Wish I could say I am sorry for everything I did to hurt him
If I could have the chance to turn back in time
I would do it all differently
I would make him love me more or at least keep what was there
Instead of loosing everything I had
I lost my whole world