the ballerina in limbo

I am another person
I don't even know who I am anymore
for now this suits me
My life changed completely for now I have a real reason to live
I have the most magical baby
and it brings me immense joy
he is all for me
still my thoughts and my heart keep going back once in a while
I still carry the same need for being love
I still feel there is something missing
maybe I expect too much
or I am not worth it of love at all
I live in a dark dark world
where my light is not enough to lit up all around me
Magic kid and I are joy, love, happiness and hopes
but all around us is darkness and anger
unexplainable anger
that are thrown at us for no reason almost daily
we try to make things easy
but nothing ever seem enough
I don't know if I can handle this for too long
for now I am stuck in this reality that is not mine, but that suits me well enough
along the years I'd learned to hurt less, to feel less and be more rational
however my heart is not dead
and I feel
still miss
miss the feeling of being loved
when maybe I have never really felt it for real
and I have just an idea of what it would be to be really loved
and my thoughts go back to all that could have been
to lives such as mine that follow their own path
and found happiness and love
it comes to mind that I am not worth that love, then, but someone else, for whom it was given to
I am still here
waiting for my chance
and always falling on traps
why can't I be worth it?
Am I that rotten?
Am I just so insignificant that no one ever thought I could mean more?
why I have always the feeling I am being used and discarded
worthless, unconsidered
Always alone
surrounded by loneliness
this time at least
I have my magic with me
who gives me strengh to go on
and the certainty I am not on this path alone anymore
for his light will give me strengh to leave this darkeness one day
I am tired of trying
exhausted of spending my whole life searching and begging for love
I know someday love will find me
because even if I feel I am not worth it
I know I deserve it
however I will search no more

And then

I am really afraid of what it's about to come to us
I cannot believe this might be true
Things been changing
I've been feeling
Although I try to deny it
If this somehow becomes true
What am i supposed to do
Would you still love me
Would you love and accept what we made from it
This is what you were expecting
And yearning
Since the first time we talked
But do i know you
Are you really what you showed me
Risks
Once more i'm about to take it

On the edge

So many uncertainties
So much fear of getting hurt
That I don't even know on what to believe anymore
Can it be that picture perfect?
Should I let go all of the insecurities and truly trust what you have for me?
You came asking for nothing but my heart, my life, my whole self
If I give that to you will I find the best on you?
I just wish you are exactly what you show to me
I want to believe it is all true
Because when we are together I find happiness, peace and joy on the most simple things
You fill my heart with hope
Although I'm still afraid to someday knoe the truth
And to find out something is hidden deeper
That I so blind could not see
I hope the trust I put on you will be worth it
And you will keep your word in not hurting me

Time will tell

When I saw you, I knew
When we met, I was more sure
When I arrived scared and you were there smiling at my door all my fears were gone
Each day we shared was a new surprise, a new discovery
A flush of happiness I have longing for so long
Something I was searching for, but not exactly at that moment where I found you
Fears of uncertainty run through my heart all the time
Because I know what I have felt and lived, not too long ago
But that does not diminishes the fondness I found in you
Looking through your eyes I can see beyond
Although you are so far, your presence dwells in my heart
I am not sure what the future beholds to us
But each and every time I hear you tell stories about it, my heart feels safe
Inspite of all the doubts and questions that also come along
I truly hope and wish it all some day can become true
Since my love for you grows bigger each and every day
But the uncertainty is always reminding me that words are just words
And only time can tell it

Shot in the dark

We are so intense and I am afraid this might end as it started
I know I am not able to handle this again
You are not the first
But I do hope you will be the last
We laugh
We entwined
We share
With no fear
Albeit deep inside I am always afraid how this might end, out of nothing, in the heat of the moment
I lived this before
I don't have to go through this once more
Please, for the last time
Be true
I am being my whole self
And giving you my whole
For the last time
But I know I might fall again
Even though I am not ready for this

The ephemeral resilience

What is resilient and ephemeral at once
Can someone be able to accept and move on?
Forget the memories and the questions
Live like there is no reason why, be open for what it has to come, spread wings and fly for what life brings.
How about everything that was, all the memories, the feelings within, were they worthless?
We do have to accept and move on
That's the ephemeral of life
It was there once and that does not mean it will be there forever, except on your memories
The ephemeral lingers on until it becomes resilient memories of what it once was
Of what dreams told you it could be
With resilience the world is quietly accepting the ephemeral of life itself
Not with its worth and due value, thoug
Everything it have been under appreciated
Feelings lost on the hustle to find the one there has never to be found
Because we don't give ourselves the time to really get to know each other
We just take prejudice on our own hands
We don't listen anymore
We don't share
We just move on whenever we think it will be easier than gettin ourselves hurt, or doubtful, or unsure, insecure
Not to feel might been seen easier
Than facing challenges of knowing each other and resulting in one
The one greatest find of all
Love
Blame it on the ephemerals not on the resilients
This is unfortunately the life we have to accept today

Trapped on your own lonely dreams

Days of complete silence, when there is no one around
As days pass by you just figure nobody cares
And that you won't make any difference
You wonder if you just might as well disappear completely
It gets to apoint when you are tired of all the masks and pretending
There is no more scapes
No more way out
Your heart keeps hurting
There is no more sense in anything
Specially when you open your eyes just to see you are wandering, lost and not going anywhere, no matter how far you try to run
It is you all alone with your thoughts trapped in hopes and dreams that might as well never get to happen
Always trying to find where you messed up and why did it all go wrong
Then your body gets tired of any movement, because it is exhausted of doing all the same stupid things that make no sense at all
Your head is heavy, tired of waiting for something or someone to shake you up and make you believe again
This just might never gonna happen
Worlds is lost and you lost yourself in it
Alone and lonely, caged and shunk on a corner
Being hurt for all that you once look forward to
Life fooled you and you wish you could spend the rest of it sleeping
Dreaming of all the hopes and wishes that will never be

I still breath

We don't breath the same air
Although is the same we share
Mine is dense filled with past
Yours is light and young as the adventures you still might think you will have
My life gained one and only one single meaning
And the search is hard to find
'cause the whole world got lost
All meaningless
I'll search
I don't give up
I know it is there
Somewhere

Filling up a hole

Breathing in it feels like smoke
But it fills up a hole
A void place inside your soul
That needs to be fed
And the only thing that nourishes
This emptiness is to inhale intoxication
You clench your teeth in rebellion
For all that you don't realize
The whole being is filling that
Emptiness and you have no idea
Who else will be able to work it out
Still there's a hole that whistle everytime you keep running
Slow the pace
Still it whistles
The hole will never be filled in again
No matter where you keep searching
It will never be the one that conquered that lot

Living a lie

And when I thought that would be enough love to share
It was empty
People feel one way
You gave so much for nothing
The love you thought you had was all yours and only yours
In the end
You were the one truly caring and believing
Lies
How to not believe them
When they seem so true

True love never ends

Sometimes the only choice is to move on and stop believing without even having the choice to try
You have to forget something that it is inside you, give up love and walk alone
Uncertain of what it could have been
You get deprived from what you need the most
And have to accept the fact that true love never ends, it transforms itself in something that goes beyond passion and desire, the yearn and burn of new lovers, gives way to pure true love.
I am glad I could feel this for someone so amazing
I suffered a long way throughout this understanding, because I wanted to have what it was never mine
But that was mine at the same time
We shared the most magical moments together, I saw deep in his eyes true love, we laughed, we loved, we had to say goodbye
Those moments were few, but they are ours forever
And almost a year later we met again
It was different and magical at the same time
I understood that I didn't need to have him to love him
The love that there is will be here throughout eternity
And just to be near him was so much I could imagine
For I was afraid I would never see him again
To hug him and the few hours we shared, more unforgettable moments just ours and ours forever
I know his heart belongs to someone new
But mine will be his as long as I breath
I gave up waiting, hoping, dreaming, that we could possibly be together
Because life sometimes is unfair, time and space become obstacles for unreachable hearts
I tried to reach him, but he was far and so closed to believe
Maybe I've done the wrong choices, but that's what fool hearts do when they are in love
I felt lost, I felt desperate watching I was loosing the only thing that mattered the most for me
By his side there were no space and time
Apart time and space were my biggest enemies
I lost this battle
I lost him
But I won't let no one ever take away the only thing that is left
True love
And is all my heart and soul quietly and silently keep loving him deeply
We might cross each other someday
Life would probably take me different ways
But something so true can only rest in me
Love doesn't require reason

That ever feeling she is missing a thing

She got that thing in herself
As if there is always something missing
She runs back in her mind all the daily chores
All the bills that need to be paid
Still, there was something missing
She looks for it in fiction, on the streets
It is not anywhere
And at the same time is there inside her
There is a piece of her walking around nowhere to be found
There is the other side missing and lost in this world
One thing keep them conected
Entanglement
She is a missing puzzle
Wandering lost between light and darkness
Always with the same sensation
Life is incomplete
So in silence she keeps moving
With a weary smile and an emptiness in her soul a void in the heart

Through you I knew

If I close my eyes I see what we've been
Even in meditation my mind runs a short film of what it had been
Nothing happens that I don't feel we should be sharing
Albeit life keeps going
There is not a minute where you ought to be apart
I wake up and faint filled of thoughts about what we lived
Even though I could have never atecipate what could have been
No one will ever dance the way you did
No one will ever touch the way you feel me
No one will ever look so deep through a soul, the way I found you
And for that
I froze a moment for life

This is a men's world

For tough girls in this world, nothing.
What is wrong for girls to hang out all alone at a bar after a hard work day?
Well, it seems everything is wrong with her.
People look as if she might be out of this world...girls, guys, everyone.
But then, why it is so right to men to do the same?
Well, let's go back in history when women were supposed to stay at home taking care of the children while women at bars were looking for money...
Now back to 2014, women make as much money as men and even though society make believe we are on the same level, still prejudice is all over
And woman is not supposed to be out on the streets by themselves
Or they look weird at to you
People walk by homeless as something usuall on a day by day frame of society
But don't dare to be a girl out at a bar all alone
It will be an offense to all that society have ever set as the place where women should stand in this world
And the biggest mistake of all is to care too much about what others think and to judge people so much
For what they don't even know.
It does not matter prejudice is all over and it is already made up.
For any action a reaction
And if you just want to sit and think
Well, maybe there's something wrong if you are a woman
Judgements are all around
Each one will have an opinion
But you never ever be left alone without anyone noticing
They will actually leave you alone but as an aberration
A caged animal in a zoo
Something society never expects from women

Denial

Still fighting a war against myself
One that says, never give up
While the other says it is time to move on
There is nothing left to decide
Just a broken heart not ready to move on
Forcing itself in a weird life of lies
While love lives there screaming to be true
Of something it will never be
It was just a touch of hands
When it all began
Lost in space and time for life

I used to believe and it was a lie

I try to make sense of things
I look around, close my eyes, feel the breeze and it is all soothing.
Still, things keep to insist in not make any sense at all.
It all begins from the moment I open my eyes and you are not here and, then, I remember you have never been
The sensation that fills my whole self is that it is all an illusion from which I will never be able to heal
I became a painful numbness being unable to erase the past, locked to the world, distrustful of love
It is all a lie, it has always been
But I blinded myself to it
and now I cannot erase what it was
If only I could have chosen to say no
The night you touched my hands
If only I could have closed my eyes the night I looked right into yours and saw so deep into your soul and inhaled your essence
If only I had the strength to say no more
Here I am,  locked in the emptiness of lonely memories
If only I could just close my eyes forever to have the peace of not longing you anymore
But even then when I close my eyes I see yours

All I could say to you, right now

Tenho tantas saudades que nem sei por onde comecar
Tanta coisa a contar que nem sei o que falar
Tenho pensado tanto em você, quer dizer, nunca parei de pensar.
Desde a última vez que nos vimos, minha vida mudou completamente.
Hoje posso dizer que sou outra pessoa e ainda assim continuo a mesma.
Estava em um táxi, olhando a vista e me deu uma vontade imensa de falar com você.
Queria falar da vida, das coisas engraçadas, do quanto estou feliz.
E ainda você faz falta.
É engraçado, você surgiu no pior da minha vida.
Talvez tenha jogado tudo em você.
Esse foi o erro.
Mas hoje que estou bem
So me falta você.
Desculpa por tudo
Foi meu maior erro
Ter jogado tudo para você
Mas sabe o que é engraçado
Ainda continuo te amando.

I wish I would I could

Sometimes I wish I could say to him how much I still miss him, his gaze, lips, arms, his hair, touch and lips.
It was so long ago
I wonder if he still remember who I am..
And in times like this I would love to write him a lovely letter, telling how much my life has changed and all that I've been through lately.
But it is long gone.

Raising the white flag

After a whole sequence of disappoinents
I give myself up
Won't search anymore for what I cannot find
I regret my foolish heart to allow itself to be so open to get hurt
Wish I could learn how to harden it, but the more it hurts louder is the pain.
Wish I could just silence it down
And walk quietly along the way with my mended soul without memories or regrets.
Running away is never the right answer
It got me to just create a bigger mess that the one I was
It's not just a matter of finding someone new, or to try to tranfer how I fell
I am not ready to move on
It is something I have to give my own time
No one replaces other
And that was my biggest mistake all along
Try to forget and ease the missing in the arms of others which never meant anything than a failed effort to diminish the pain and the abscence of a true love.
A sequence of frustrating lies.
Things like this cannot be compared.

It could be real

Sometimes I wish I could tell you just how I feel
But I am just lost in all that's been through
My heart is split and shattered
There's some remains of what was hurt
There's a part that just want to run wild
I have so much in me
That I've been keeping to myself
Caged screaming for release
I had so much to give you
When I feel is not safe
I know somehow you feel it too
But it will never be the same way again
You've been here for so long
That no time and space could ever change our ways

You are a forever living part of mine

I spent my whole night dreaming of you
I fell asleep thinking of you
I deny myself of your existence
But I cannot deny you are still here
All along
I don't yearn and burn anymore
Still I long your presence
You were something I could never be able to classify
You mean something
And I will never understand why
Maybe it was meant to be
As well as it was meant to go
But somehow I feel
You are here around me
Even if only in thoughts
Or dreams

Tricks and traps

Games
Why life is all about playing them?
I never play games
I just protect myself
And for some it might seem a game
When it's nothing like this
Well, I've got the blame
It's nothing like this
But then when I open my eyes
There I am
Mixed up in a new game
Well, that's life
People are afraid to be true
But I don't
And I never understand this
So I always believe
Although I just keep everything to myself
It's hard to let go
When you've learned bruises
When you know exactly where it hurts
Even though you keep hoping
My heart it's still not a stone
I keep being the naive girl who believes
But I've learned
Nothing comes so easy
I wish it could
Well, they don't
Life is a cliché of a roller coaster
And once we throw ourselves on it
There's no way back
So open your eyes, live
The ride is short
Abeit knowing all of this
I'm still afraid
The trying of being right always becomes the wrong
And when it starts
You will never know where to stop
Because you just threw yourself on it
And what happens then
Owww
It's beyond your control
How can you hold on for love
Never

Impressions from a recovering heartbreak

As day passes there's not one I don't thing about him
And each and every time it hurts
As if I got my heart squeezed
Life goes on with the mission to let go of what was never meant to be
It's a mix of love, melancholy, nostalgy, disappontment, disillusion, longing and the certainty I lost. No matter how hard I had tried, nothing would make him love me, nothing could bring him closer to me.
I became someone else, I think I'll never be able to give myself that way again, for I'm still shattered and picking up the small pieces that was left from this. I'm afraid I will never be able to forget him. I don't think I can trust anymore.
I remembered it was all unknown to me, but it was this great feeling, he seemed to bring me peace from what he apparently felt and I felt safe, so I closed my eyes and threw myself, without measuring the consequences. What could go wrong in something so pure? Well, everything.
I blame myself for trusting, believing and daydreaming too much, how could I. He was the one, I wasn't.
The thought of him brings me longing and emptyness. Tears come to my eyes everytime somebody ask me about him and the thought of him is a constant presence. There's a void in my heart that I can't refill. I will never understand why I love him.

Waking up

I cannot keep believing
When you don't
I had done what I could
But I feel you don't ever noticed
You never cared much
When it was all I cared
You are not even sure if you want to see me again - that's something I heard a lot from you in the past few months.
So I've come to the conclusion: I have been knocking my head on an empty wall...
When I stop to think, I did all the moves, you just kept there going with the flow
Maybe I gave myself too much for something that was meant to last for a week and move on...adventures...
And I believed and carried for a whole year, just to listen that there was nothing...I felt like a fool, as I have always been...
But I tried so hard to believe, that maybe I couldn't see the true story
Just one of your tries
Just one of your adventures
Not the perfect candy you have been searching for so long in each package you open - maybe for a moment you thought so, just to find out, nahhh, not what I am looking for
I feel a fool for that
Sorry if I was so naive to believe and to try and, for all this, to bother you for so long as the needy, boring, annoying Brazilian girl - I might as well have become a joke
It just seems so stupid now
Meeting you all the other times
Everything
Sorry
Just know my feelings for you were true
But since that don't mean anything
It's time for me to truly go
Thank you for all the patience
And understanding
But that is not enough
You know that I am here
And sorry if I cannot wait anymore
What I think is a shame
But you never proved me wrong
Never
You just always let it go
Never fought
Never cared
And I know I say harsh words sometimes
But you, you never said anything - that's even worst than harsh words...
I just have to go back to life
That's what I've been trying, but the thought of you never allows me
So there's just a reason for me to open myself that much
And I already know what to expect...nothing
But I need to say how I feel, anyway, so I will never regret my side of the story...
Selfish, yes, you can call that, but the other side was as much...
Now, I am the one who learned to say: I don't care

The truth hits you someday...

For the first time ever my heart is telling me, it's time to let him go
I've done everything I could
And maybe it was not enough
Or probably I was taken for granted
And what I feel is undervalued
I love, I feel, I gave my all, I tried
For nothing
For maybes
For someone who never valued what I am, what I fell, all I've done...
I miss him each and every second, but for what? For nothing...
He don't have promises, nor plans, and the ones he've got I'm not in...
Sometimes we try so hard to believe, until we see it was all lies...I was just one more of his games, a holliday treat, with one difference...I, myself, believed it was true and fought for it to happen...
Dreaming of a tale that was meant to have a sad ending, unfortunatelly.
When I look at him, when I go through what we lived, I see a match...but I was just one more...ohh that hurts
How can I trust people that much?
I just wish it was not a lie...when it was...so sad....I believed
But when you love someone
You expect somehow to get back the same feelings
And after all you have done
The only answer you get is
"Not sure"
"Won't promise"
Well, I was a fool for falling in such a big way, because I believed!
I've been waiting for him for a year
And all I get is doubts...
That kills me so bad, that maybe, I finally realized, it's time to move on
Such a waste of feelings...it could have been the coolest story ever, but it turned to nothing...just sad
Maybe I deserve better
Because I've done everythig I could
And that hurts me so bad

Missing a part of me

There's always a part in me missing and it's you.
Some days I wonder if I will ever be whole again, others I just try to forget what is missing.
I walk around pretending I just don't feel it, when it is there all along.
Last night I cried out of your absence, when all around was happiness but still, there was no you
Only hearing your voice or feel your arms around me
Anything would be enough for me as long as it's from you
I am trying to not expect anymore, I try not to take this as hard as it is, when it's not easy...
But can I at least dream, foolish dreams, even though I know they won't become true.
I dream of being complete again, until I dream no more, for the missing will kill it slowly in time.

I cannot lie to me

I can lie to anyone, I can even try to lie to myself, but that's one think I cannot do.
Not matter what, you are always here. I constantly thing about you and wonder if there's still something left of me in you.
Soon it will be one year since the first night we met. So much have happened since, I don't even know where to start.
I miss you, I don't know why, but I do.
Wish I could go back in time and live it all over again.
But our time unfortunately has passed with no way back.
For me only memories to cherish and to keep forever.
I just love you don't ask me why...just like that.

What's next now

I really don't know why all this much is going on in my life.
I just think it's time to move on.
I have to change the path, the way of thinking, my drive, about all aspects.
I'm tired.
And for a year or so everything that I thought I was starting to build little by little just fell apart.
Nothing actually worked out, not the way I expected, or in any other way.
Just turn arounds in all aspects.
Well, if everything is going wrong, there might be something I am doing wrong.
And it has to change.
Just don't know where to start over, or how...but I need to figure this out.
Maybe I take things too much seriously, I believe too much in people, expecting that I get back what I give, in love, in work, but maybe that's not how this world works.
Life has been adding bitterness into my heart and with that maybe I'll learn to be stronger, to care less, to use the reason more than the heart.
Maybe this way I won't scare people out of my life and won't embrace lost causes, when you just have to play the game and go with the flow.
Maybe I've been expecting too much of life and it's time to expect nothing at all, just live day by day and take what it comes from it. Just accept defeat and don't struggle too much to try to make things right and your hands are tied and the wheigh of things is to heavy to carry all along the way by myself. I think that's how life works in the end and we always have to learn the hard way.
So why paint a picture that does not exist and struggle to try to make people also believe in it. Each one of us paint their own pictures.

Só queria te ver mais uma vez

Quando a saudade aperta, a gente sabe que é de verdade.
Os dias passam e a saudade continua.
O tempo passa e ela continua ali, dentro de você, fazendo lembrar o que não existe.
Aí, você olha em volta e dá um vazio, um aperto no coração e uma vontade grande de olhar nos olhos e, sem palavras, dizer o que fica aqui guardado.
Aquela vontade de um abraço apertado, de um carinho, um beijo.
Sinto uma saudade quase que eterna e isso me faz sentir viva.

It was just a dream

I don't know if it was because of the beautiful story I just had watched, maybe the songs that were playing while I fell asleep, but last night I dreamt of him. I was at home and got surprised by a message from a unknown number saying "look through your window", and as I looked outside there he was smiling. I ran all the way down to jump onto to his arms. But since it was a dream, it was my building, my house, my street, but it was Lisbon. That feeling, right there was overwhelming, a moment of dreams coming true, nevertheless it was just a dream and as perfect as it sounded, I had to wake up. Now I miss him even more, as if I actually had seen him in my dream, it was so real, that waking up felt like a nightmare.
Las night I dreamt of him and that's all I have left.

Hurtful lies and deceiving truth...contempt...owww, that's how cowards call love nowadays

I believe
Even when people are doubting
I might be the biggest believer ever
'Cause when I see true love
It feels like a shame to see it goes to waste...
People try to commit
And they don't have any idea of what this cost...a lot of effort...
Love and only love won't take you anywhere if there's no cumplicity...
And people think falling in love will solve all their lives...
Well, no no no
There's a long road between love and making it work
Oh life
I almost laugh from all the stories I hear and all that I went through
Noooo
Love and only love
Is perfect on tales, but it won't take you anywhere
It's all a matter of being true to yourself and to the loved one, even when the harsh words are the best to say, if there's honesty...
But somehow people preffer to live in lies...how shallow
And they don't tell the truth afraid to hurt the other, when hidding the truth is doing so much harm...but, at least -they think - they're kepping it safe...such a scam
Cowards, that's how I call
Because instead of facing the truth
They would rather pretend things are all fine
They hide in lies
Never thinking that those lies that protect them are the same that crushes some other people's heart for believing or for make believe all the things that are not true...
Why cannot people just be true to each other
It's sad
But I've seen so many beautiful things going away for not being true
It's sad
We have to believe in love
For it's all we have as a purpose in this world
When people keep thinking quantity is better than quality
And that's how society is becoming shallow, cold...a sad place to live...
I will not surrender and I will fight for all the loves I belive inside and among me, because what matters is to see everyone around me happy
For my happiness I lost in a hard sad fight to the one I loved...but for whom I could never feel any closer...
Shallow hearts, those that treat people as dispposable...they promise you the world, when all they have is emptyness and lies...so sad...when you belive it's true...you feel you've been fooled for such cowardness, when all you needed was an arm to hold you dearly...scammers, lies...all the ones who trully believe in love one day will fall for the beautiful lies...when they're only lies we believe for nothing...
"Wait for me..."
All faces
All gestures
Well, all fake acting
Scammers
Sad
That I once believed
No matter how close or how far
There's always cowards breaking someone else's heart
I will keep believing in love
Just won't believe words anymore, if not followed by coherent actions to reinforce the words are true
For I am tired of maybes and who knows
I do love
And if someone loves me just have to say it so and act in accordance
And if he doesn't love me just say it so and let me go
Or if it's not sure, well it does not love, so be true and just let me go as well
And tell me a real goodbye...
Because I believe, I hope and wait...feeling it's such a waste
Because I was as used as I believed in the lies that kept me having faith for the one I love...even if it was all lies, I got back from it.

Little by little

One step at a time
And I am letting go
Thinking it over
Going back on memories
It is all here still
But with a different purpose
No more hopes or expectations
Just living day by day, trying to overcome the reality of something that I will never be able to truly live
As sad as it might seems, is just the things we have to leave behind in order to move on
And little by little I am teaching myself to get over a love
And as I think it all over, I don't feel I will ever go through this again, to give my heart in a worthless story, even though it was worth. For all the greatest memories, the pain was just proportional to the feelings I grew within.
So I hope one day to keep a smile on my face whenever those memories come to mind, not with a broken heart, but with a nostalgic sensation that, right there, I had found true love and happiness.

Vô e vó

I saw that one picture and it made me cry...it was the last register of our family happiness...I could go back to that day...and it was perfect...
Now everyone is missing, most of them are gone...it was just one day registered for forever...but that keeps me making me cry...I lost all I loved the most...grandma and granpa...miss you everyday....